Feeling lucky

Well hello my lovely and loyal readers ♥ My goodness, I had the pictures uploaded for this post since last weekend, but I have literally not had a minute to sit down and start writing. So here I am, pj's on, cuppa made, tucked up in bed, and spotify playing a sleepy playlist. The last couple of weeks have been super busy for me between working 11 hour days on the new programme we're filming, plus a 3 hour round commute every day. I'm holding on for dear life and trying to keep up, with the positive vibes that this madness is only temporary and come December I'll have some time off and a decent amount of money in the bank to relax for a few weeks.

I literally have no social life at the moment on weekdays. My only connection to friends and family is through texts and social media! If you follow me on instagram or twitter (@hellorogue) then you might have already heard there's a new blue eyed boy in town...

Meet my newest member of the fluffy family, Thackery Binx (aka the black cat in Hocus Pocus, and Binx for short) This little fella was found abandoned on a country road in Perthshire by a family friend, wandering next to his sibling who had been run over :( I won't explain the full story and bore you all to tears, but he ended up being in my care with the plan of building his strength back up and then I'd find him a permanent home. But oh no, this wee dude has made quite the mark on our household, with his number one fan being his already devoted big brother - Dexter.

It filled my heart with so much joy to see Dexter treat this new kitty with such patience and kindness. After everything Dexter has been through recently I didn't want to expose him to any unnecessary stress, but of his own accord he has stepped up to the mark in looking after Binx in a way I never thought possible. Got me thinking of the Dear Kitten video. Absolutely adorable. Binx is only 5 weeks old but the vet is pleased with his progress and the weight is piling on, he was literally skin and bone the night I took him home. My lucky little black cat.

 'Dear Kitten, welcome to the household. You'll do just fine' ♥

Apart from long lies and kitten cuddles, here's my recent reasons to smile, and a few of my favourite things at the moment:

I'm still keeping up my healthy eating and TechnoShape sessions, almost finished a full course and have lost quite a few cm off my waist and tummy so far. Can't wait to share the results with you when I'm done! Absolutely obsessed with Nakd bars, they are my go to sweet treat with a cuppa in work, and I got this mixed box from Natural Balance Foods. I've been considering going on a wheat free diet to see if it's what has been causing various issues with bloating and a sore tummy. But one step at a time for me at the moment. I had a pretty bad viral infection at the start of this new job, so started taking various vitamins to help keep my stamina up, and ended up with the cold by the end of the first week taking them! But I'm hoping that's just all the lingering nasties pushing their way out of my system and I'll be back to normal soon.

Loosing a bit of weight and toning up my figure definitely called for a pretty new underwear set. I got this Freya Deco Rebel set from Bras & Honey. My confidence took such a hit after my break up, so simple treats like this really brighten up my day. I've never been one for spending much money on underwear, and don't think twice about wearing non matching bra's and pants (shock horror!) But this gorgeous set is so comfy and flattering to wear, it's definitely ignited a little bug in me. Trying to avoid their website again until payday. I can see an addiction forming...

Majorly enjoying channeling my inner goth recently, after dying my hair dark brown (bye bye blue!) and a lot of love for black, grey, silver and studs. My new sugar skull tshirt and black acid wash skirt from Spartoo, with black tights, black vans and my grey Fred Perry raincoat was the ideal outfit for running errands around town last weekend. Very rarely leave the house these days without my kunzite crystal pendant, which I got from an astrology shop in Covent Garden earlier on in the year.

Cass Art is opening in Glasgow next month, and I have been using this watercolour 24 half pan and beautiful sable brushes to paint up one of the props in the first episode of the new tv show we are filming. Wish I could share more details but it's all confidential until the programme airs (boo) I am creative in my job on a daily basis but very rarely do any sort of drawing or painting at home in my own time. But this has to change as I find it so theraputic. So I took the set, brushes and water colour paper home at the weekend with the hope of starting my own little project soon.

I was off work for 3 days with that viral infection, so spent most of the time chilling in my OnePiece (comfiest thing ever - hands down!) and spending time away from the computer because I had such awful headaches. Apologies for the bad quality phone photo, now that I'm single and my flatmate is out all the time I find it absolutely impossible to find someone to take impromptu outfit photos for me. Next time I'll be chapping on the neighbours door, haha! Iphone next to DSLR pictures isn't the best *hides behind hands* I have a 15% off discount code for you to use on your very own OnePiece, it's LUCKYCAT and is valid until 1st October :) It's already 'that' time of year in Scotland - sun misleadingly shining while it's absolutely freezing.

By the time the weekend came I had total cabin fever, so ventured out the house and got my nails done by the super talented Bethany Lillico who works in the South Side of Glasgow. Told you, it's the simple things! Okay, these may be material things but they make me smile none the less.

I feel like my physical and emotional health takes such a battering during the week that I really need to devote my weekends to feeling good on the inside, and outside. Looking after my body, and ultimately realising how precious a thing SLEEP is! Looking after my mind by doing things I enjoy, and investing my energy in positive people and situations. Not really doing myself many favours by taking on the responsibility of a 5 week old kitten who requires a lot of love and attention. But despite how exhausted I am right now, I have a lot of love to give and feel like he has been my lucky charm after all the recent bumps in the road.

This Saturday I'm heading down to London for the Tattoo Convention, so if you're going I'll maybe see you there! In the meantime, keep in touch via twitter and instagram (@hellorogue)

Nine Lives

Well it's pretty safe to say that my furry friend Dexter has been through the wars recently. I've had a lot of people asking on twitter and instagram what happened to him and how he is doing now, so I thought I'd share the story. Which ends in the seemingly obvious moral of how massively important cat insurance is.

It all started the weekend I went down to Leeds to get tattooed, and my flatmate Gary called me the day before I was coming home to say that Dexter had been sick a few times and was moping about feeling sorry for himself. Both Dexter and Tinkerbell are sick every so often, but never enough to worry because it's always fur ball related. However this time Gary was suspect of Dexter climbing on top of the bookcase in the living room and trying to 'groom' the hair extensions on a fake unicorn head we had up there. Sounds absolutely mad but Gary is a propmaker and this was a wonderful creation of his he made back at uni! Neither of the cats had bothered about going up there years before now, so I don't know what all of a sudden struck Dexters interest.

I got home at 6ish the next day, and got quite a fright when I saw how much Dexter wasn't himself. I kept a close eye on him overnight, and rushed him along to the vets as soon as they opened the next morning. They took him in for bloods and an xray, with their biggest concern being these long fake hair extensions that he had been grooming getting caught up in his intestines. After him being kept in overnight and a massive chat with the vet, we decided that an operation was the next step to go in and investigate, then remove whatever was lurking inside his tummy. Turns out it was the tiniest clump of long hair that was stuck in there, causing all the trouble. One more day and Dexter probably wouldn't have survived :( The hair had caught between his bowels and intestines, causing them to concertina and cause a blockage. The vet told me a few stories of cats swallowing needles and thread - and funnily enough it's not the needle they were worried about, it's the thread! Any piece of hair, string, ribbon, tinsel, thread etc that is longer than their own hair can cause serious amounts of damage.

Dexter came through the operation and was in the pet hospital for a week and a half afterwards in recovery. They said if a human had been through this procedure they would be in intensive care for weeks. They had to cut him open inside in 6 different places, and remove a part of his bowel that had been damaged. He was on a drip for the duration of his stay, and was in a really vulnerable position to the point that I didn't know if he was going to make it through. Every day I waited for the call to say he could come home. I cried with relief the day that finally came!

Here is my handsome boy about a week after he got home. You can see where his legs have been shaved for the drip he was on (which he was apparently quite a pro at pulling out the last few days of his stay!) and I was having to give him tablets twice a day for about three weeks, along with trips to the vets every three days. Until he finally got signed off last weekend :) He looks quite skinny in this picture but his appetite is back in full swing and he's piling the weight on again. Dexter has some lovely new toys from Gor Pets to enjoy now that he's home (a new scratching post and a bouncy mouse toy) He has also totally claimed my gorgeous tartan blanket from Heritage of Scotland. It's Loch Carron Lambswool with the Bruce of Kinnaird tartan, and I'd been using it as a throw for the bottom of my bed and over the chair in my bedroom. Then I noticed that on the blanket is the only place Dexter would sleep when he was back in the house. So I think he's claimed dibs on it for now, but I'll let him away with it since he's not been well.

You can't quite see in this picture but a huge section of Dexter's belly got shaved for the operation. He's such a hairy cat so it's really strange seeing skin for a change! It's growing back pretty quickly already though.

Oscar and Dougall got this new play pen from Rakuten Play for when they have 'floor time'. I'll be honest, what's happened with Dexter has made me even more wary about any potential dangers in my room. So although the pigs don't have as much free reign as they used to I feel a lot better knowing that any hazards are out the way when they're out their cage. The above picture was piggy dinner while I cleaned their cage, but they've also got a good few toys to play with and 'mweep' around during floor time :)

To celebrate Dexter coming home, Jokers Masquerade sent him this absolutely BRILLIANT costume! Can you guess who it is?...

Katy Perry California Girl - SO GOOD! I've used Jokers before for past Halloween Costumes, but I had no idea they did pet costumes too. Okay, this one is for a dog BUT you know my history of dressing Dexter up haha. And before you say it, absolute alarm bells were ringing around that wig - believe me. But don't worry, I popped it on for photo purposes, completely supervised and put it straight in the bag and away in a drawer once we were done. I have learned my lesson and there is no way I will go through that drama again.

Daisy dukes, bikini on top! Hahaha how absolutely raging does he look in this picture?! He wasn't tolerating the wig and the glasses at the same time, it was either to be one or the other. But the cupcake bra he was very happy to wear, and actually wandered off for a bit once I took the wig off. I'm determined to get some better pictures of Dexter come Halloween time with this outfit on, and possibly try it on Heather's dogs next time she comes round as the outfit is a Large (he's a big cat after all)

To say this stuff with Dexter has been an ordeal, is an absolute understatement. Any pet owner will know how much animals become more like family, and the thought of them being ill or passing away is really unimaginable and hard to deal with. The biggest lesson I've learned through this, is that even though Dexter is a house cat - pet insurance is still absolutely vital. I was naive to think that because he stays in the house means he is exempt to any sort of danger. So if you don't have pet insurance I cannot stress more that you should seriously consider getting it. Dexter's vet bill tallied up to £966 in total, and I couldn't have got through this experience or paid the bill without the help of my friends and family. I'm a very lucky girl, and Dexter is a very lucky cat. I am so grateful to have my fur-baby home. They say cats have nine lives and I am absolutely positive that Dexter has used up one of them. Take it from me, life lesson learned!

Life reboot: Be kind to yourself

Whenever I am feeling overwhelmed with life in general, I like to strip things back to basics. Rather than over complicating everything (which I seem to be very good at doing) taking in a few simple pleasures always helps me to clear my head. Being proactive and addressing my physical health and appearance really seems to help the emotional and psychological side too. Our body is a vessel which carries us through the ups and downs of life. You need to be kind to it otherwise you will burn yourself out, and be of absolutely no use to anybody! Here's my three recent life reboots which are helping to make a much healthier and happier outlook on life.

Reboot 1 - Skin

My skin very much reflects how I'm feeling on the inside. I feel like my stress escapes through the body in the form of tension headaches and spots! I'll explain more about the headaches later, but I have been indulging in a regular skincare routine recently. Taking the time to actually do it is just as satisfying as seeing the results from the products themselves.

This corrective formula is designed to condition and lift the delicate area around your eyes. I am such a bad one for rubbing my eyes with face wipes to get rid of stubborn eyeliner at the end of a long day. I've luckily never suffered from dark circles but I do get quite bad bags under my eyes when I'm tired. I apply it first thing in the morning before my makeup, and it definitely helps to cool and calm that morning puffiness under my eyes. You only need to use a tiny amount too, so I can see this 15ml bottle lasting me quite a while.

I recently found out that Glasgow was ranked as the UK's most skin friendly city! Simple combined  the average hours of sunshine, pollution levels, and a poll of stress levels from women living in the city over the course of a year. I live just a couple of miles outside the city centre, so was quite pleased to hear this. Guess where was discovered to be the worst... Liverpool! Which really surprised me as I thought it would be London (who actually ranked second)

A beauty therapist years ago gave me the fear over using Simple products, saying that they strip your skin and are actually very harsh. So I had always avoided them until now, and I'm very glad that my opinion has completely changed for the better.

Simple selection - Every Day

I have been using these 4 products above every morning. Although I cleanse my face the night before, I like to use the cleansing wipes and eye makeup remover pads in the morning after my shower. I always think I've got all my eye makeup off and end up still resembling the little girl from The Ring when I come out the shower. I have been using the protecting moisture cream and then the beauty balm instead of my usual foundation. I absolutely love it! It's a light and creamy consistency but has actually got quite a medium coverage for a BB cream, and I'm wearing it in the first picture in this post. It is my total go to base every day now, and the colour adapts to my skin really well whether I've got fake tan on or absolutely nothing. A wee hidden makeup gem that I will re buy over and over!

Simple selection - Every night

Taking 20 minutes in the evening to treat my skin is a nice wee wind down before bed. I go between the cleansing lotion and facial wash depending on how much makeup I've worn that day. Along with the eye makeup remover on a cotton pad, then the facial toner. Plus the same protecting moisturiser that I use in the morning too. The thought of going to bed with makeup on (which I was quite bad for doing lazily sometimes, especially after a night out) makes me feel horrible!

Simple Selection - Every other day

I've been using these three products every other day when I feel like my skin needs it. The illuminating radiance cream feels like a primer with a slight shimmer to it, and is also quite moisturising so makes for a lovely dewy makeup look along with the BB cream. The moisture mist is great for me during long days filming on set, where I don't touch my makeup for at least 12 hours and my skin starts to feel a bit tight. I literally just spray this over my makeup and it brings it to life again! Probably not how you're meant to use it but it works for me. The sun kissed moisture cream has a gradual tanner in it, so I use it the days after I've faked tan to help my face match by body (school boy error!) as the tan on my face does fade when I'm cleaning it so much.

Reboot 2 - Body

I would be lying if I said I wasn't one of those girls who thinks about her weight and body shape on a daily basis. But I'm finally taking a more positive approach to it, with lifestyle changes and sustainable actions rather than fad diets. I did a big monthly shop last week, as I've been getting catering on so many jobs recently that I've not needed to have a lot of food in the house. But there's no greater feeling than your fridge and cupboards being full of good, healthy food. I'm still a big fan of Quorn and have been incorporating it into my cooking at least once a week. 

I'm happy to get excited about food, rather than starving myself and counting calories. I eat what I want, making sensible choices, and don't deny myself a treat when I'm in the mood! I must say though, since getting back into exercise again I am not craving chocolate and crisps the way I used to. I think they definitely have an addictive quality to them and the less you eat them, the less you end up wanting them. I was told at the Health Sanctum that my recent headaches are probably being caused by the withdrawal of certain foods, including carbs! Health Sanctum is a health and weight loss clinic that has opened just down the road from me, and they specialise in alternative and holistic therapy. I've been visiting them for Techno-shape sessions and I feel so lucky to have such an informative and supportive source right on my doorstep.

Okay, so excuse my bare belly! But here are some 'before' pictures of my stomach (which is the main area I am addressing) before I started the TechnoShape sessions. Each session lasts 40 minutes, and consists very simply of wearing a air pressured belt while you work on the treadmill. The belt gently moves and almost massages your stomach, encouraging blood circulation to your mid drift. Ever work out and get a red face and red arms, but your stomach is always still cold to touch? Encouraging the blood to circulate more in this area while you work out boosts your body's ability to burn fat in this area. That's the science behind it anyways, and I've completely 4 of 6 sessions, so I'll be excited to share the results with you when I'm done :)

Reboot 3 - Mind

Probably the simplest of the three, and the overall message of this post. Be kind to yourself. Look after your body and your mind and they will look after you. Be kind to others, because we are all on our own personal journey and facing hard battles along the way.

I am learning every day to allow the space between where I am and where I want to be to inspire me and not terrify me.
—  Tracee Ellis Ross