I just want to live while I'm alive



This was my view walking home from the Citz last night. The sky was honestly so surreal! I think I must have caught it at the perfect moment... I had to stop and take a picture. The only other time I have taken a picture of the sky similar this was a couple of years ago around spring time:


Im loving the fact that the air is slightly warmer, and that the sun is showing its face for longer hours in the day. These little changes are making me optimistic that it wont be too long until summer :) Is it wrong that I look forward to it so much? This winter has felt really long and dark. I have never watched the sunrise properly, somewhere picturesque. Maybe I will get to see it somewhere nice in europe come july/august. Here are some winter sunsets I took a good while ago working on a short film in Loch Lomond:
 


Thats Davids shillouete! Haha he is pretty much blacked out. These pictures havent been edited very much either. Our world, and the sky, and the way nature pieces everything together is pretty beautiful when you really think about it. Talking about David, yesterday was a year and a half to the day that we started going out. I know its not a proper anniversary as much... a 'halfaversiry' if you wish :) But we went to Yo Sushi for some grub, it was yummy! I had to send one of my little hot dishes back because it wasnt very warm, Ive never done that before in a restaurant but I couldnt eat it lukewarm. So the waitress gave us 20% off our bill which was super nice of her. I got David a little card from Lazy Oaf (loves it) and he got me a nice card too :) We didnt talk about exchanging anything, but we both did it unknowingly anyways! David also got me a Hello Kitty tin full of marshmallows and a matching strawberry lip gloss. He knows me too well ♥

Things are going well at the Citizens Theatre, I spent half a season working there last year so I know the building and the people, and the workshops. So its all been good and Im feeling pretty settled already. Its quite a long and busy day, but this is what I want to do with my life so I wouldnt have it any other way. 110% effort and commitment all the way will hopefully get me where I want to be. Im not the best painter in the world but I work bloody hard and keep my brain constantly switched on. I make too many lists and use my moleskin diary to death, which emotionally exhausts me at times because I actually do want to be able to switch off when I feel like it. But during term time its good to get the positive momentum going, and not necessarily that easy to slow down or stop once you get started or into a certain frame of mind. Or at least thats the way I feel anyways. 

On a more positive note, I am going to have my dinner, and then a smelly lush bath, and then get into my jammies. This fridays episode of lost is calling my name to get streamed dans l'internet! Yahoo homepage informed me today that 15 Hollyoaks characters are getting killed off?! Say what!? The worlds gone insane. Most certainly ♥

Sunday Best.

Hello everyone. And hello to my new followers :) I think that may be thanks to a little award I won from the lovely Victoria at Lily Loves Lola... But yeah, thanks for the award girlie ♥ This weekend I went to see Alice In Wonderland in 3D with David, everyone seems to be talking about it just now so I wont rant on. It didnt get a good write up, but I do think it was a very good film. Its had much more hype than alot of other Burton films, so maybe this will encourage people to dig deeper and watch some of his older masterpieces! Ones that dont necessarily contain his muse ensemble of Depp and Carter. 

Tonight as Im typing this I am watching Stardust, it is certainly one of my favourite films. One that I could just watch over and over. Yesterday I worked as per usual in the cafe bar, serving up all the mums and dads their skinny lattes and rocky road, and the kids hot chocolates. So many hot chocolates, every fooking saturday! Honestly, by the end of the day Im sneezing out chocolate powder. The families that send their kids to drama works at the rsamd, and the music school cant be short of cash. Half these little 'uns pay up with £20 notes out their teeny wallets and purses. When I was 10 years old I dont even think I knew was a £20 looked like! I remember getting £2 for my lunch at school and being very happy about that. Maybe my mum spent the remaining £18 on buying me some manners :I Enough said. These kids may be well entertained on a saturday but 99% of them dont know how to verbalise 'please' or 'thank you'. Sometimes Im even lucky enough to have their money put in my hand, rather than thrown on the counter! It really gets me on my soapbox, but its not entirely their fault I guess. The mummies and daddies arent always the most pleasant of folks either. Ever feel like sometimes older people look down on you, if you work in a shop/cafe/cinema or something like that? Yes I get paid minimum wage to put up with your shite all day but its only my bloody part time job. Its made me be more aware of my attitude and manners when I go into a shop and Im served by someone. Even if Im in a foul mood, I'll always make an effort to be polite. All in the name of niceness and good karma, ye know? 

On saturday night me and David got some dinner and watched the latest episode of lost. Loves it! We lay in bed this morning eating cheerios, making each other laugh and I caught a wee bit of hollyoaks. This afternoon I met my daddy for a coffee and a wander around town, then I went and met one of my best friends Katrina down the west. It was chilly but really sunny and my raybans made their first appearance this year :) We had a look around all the charity and vintage shops, and I bought a scottish brooch for the Tam O Shanter hat Im making for the end of the month.


"I never imagined I'd know it for myself. My heart... It feels like my chest can barely contain it. Like it's trying to escape because it doesn't belong to me any more. It belongs to you. And if you wanted it, I'd wish for nothing in exchange - no gifts. No goods. No demonstrations of devotion. Nothing but knowing you loved me too. Just your heart, in exchange for mine"

 

Im meant to share 7 facts about myself, but I have bored you all with that old chestnut so many times now. I think instead I will share 7 pictures (maybe a few more) of my year out before uni that I spent working in a fancy dress shop. Something remotely laughable at on a chilled sunday night :) 


The name of the shop is Forgotten Dreams, they also did events management stuff and these big inflatables were one of the services we provided! I was too small to go in them and only went in once, but I took this picture on a job that I was facepainting on and we had the clown there too.


This is my old boss, Tom, and the back of gemmas head :) We also hired out a range of these big windy men and this is one out the front of the shop!


The company also did balloon decor for events, so I got full training in balloons (ha, sounds technical... not!)
and how to make up arrangements of all shapes and sizes, archways, and balloon modelling. We worked at weddings, birthdays, christenings - you name it. Made me appreciate how much work goes into these strange creations.


Meet my alter ego, Jinty McGinty! This is the horribly unattractive outfit I got to wear when I was entertaining at events and parties. As a balloon modeller the hourly rate was awesome and it was so much fun. I can make all sorts of silly animals, and this will remain to be my party trick for a very long time :)


My main work I did apart from at the shop was being hired out as a professional facepainter. I got to work in loads of different events all over the country, from small scale fun days to private parties for big companies. I miss it :( One thing that I wont miss however, is all the ridiculous stuff I had to dress up in! For events jobs especially. Ive been the easter bunny at Ikea, little sister wimpy at the Wimpy Homes opening, Lady MacBeth at Stirling castle in the pissing rain, Mrs Claus in over 5 different grottos... the list goes on. I allow you to laugh at my expense :)








Clearly Im not dressed up in this last pic, but I just wanted to post it to show you all how young I looked! I was ony 17, so working full time until I started uni seemed like the longest year of my life. It allowed me to pay to learn to drive and sit my driving test, go a nice holiday to canada, and buy my first snowboard. I wouldnt have been able to do these things if I hadnt been working full time, and my dad thought I would get too used to having money and not want to go back into education. This wasnt the case, and I was absolutely desparate to start uni and have something productive to focus on. I was very young and naieve when I worked at forgotten dreams, it was a family run business and I got caught up in the politics and ended with them on very bad terms. Which I do regret, but there was nothing I could do about it. I started uni with a fresh outlook to life, and glad that I had taken a year out instead of doing 6th year at school. Nearly three years on, I cant believe Im about to graduate! :(

I start work tomorow morning at 9am at the Citizens Theatre. Its my first day and Im nervous, even though Ive worked there before :( So I've got all my brushes and my kit ready, just need to make my lunch and iron my painty clothes and Il be ready to get to bed. Im working on two shows, one is in the studio theatre and is called Plasticine, and the other is a main stage show called The Three Sisters - a play by Anton Chekhov A girl in my year is doing the design, so hopefully should be a nice show to paint. I'd better be off now to get organised, hope everyones monday morning tomorow isnt too bad ♥

Daffodil Girl.

 

Needing some inspiration, I nabbed this little quiz from Lil over at a storm in a teacup. She is lovely :)

Listening... Cobra Starship, Rihanna, The Glee Soundtrack Vol 1&2, Jimmy Eat World, Paramore, and the 500 Days of Summer Soundtrack.
Reading... Empire magazine and my Studio Ghibli book. The Life and Death of Charlie St Cloud, and The Time travellers Wife are sitting on my shelf unread :( Boo me!
Watching... Lost season 6. Last film I saw was the Princess and The Frog, and last dvd I watched was Cloudy With A Chance Of Meatballs.
Buying... Fabric from Mandors because I am making an old style scottish hat for a documentary, and last night me and David booked our outward and homeward bound flights for Europe this summer. Score!
Wanting... Some products from the Dermalogica Clean Start range, and a pair of Nike Dunk SB's. Wishing Cornwall and some surfing was taking place this easter, but its not gonna happen :(
Trying... To master this whole piano playing malarkey. Its going well so far, and my university has lots of lovely baby grands to play with so I really cant complain :)
Loving... Vera Wang Glam Princess, M&S lunches (even though they are too bloody expensive) going to see Underoath soon, Hairspray The Musical in may, and cant wait for lunch at The Bothy next sunday with my mammy and gran. I love the west end on a sunday.
Planning... The next crucial 6 months of my life. From completing my work placements, degree show, and making it to graduation. Then onto interrailing with my lovely boy this summer, and coming home to job hunt and flat hunt ♥
Making.... A set for an advert out of cardboard, with gorgeous illustrated drawings and a very talented Ashleigh Blair!
Writing... List after list after list.
Cooking... Dinner on saturday night. Watching masterchef really puts mine and Davids skillz to shame :)
Inspired by... words from my family and friends, wandering the aisles at Hobbicraft, Millars Art Store and Mandors, We Are Made In The Shade, and too many fashion/makeup blogs to mention!


This is my 'view from the afternoon' :) Thank you to Nicole at Language Timothy, and Joanne(?) at ♥Music, Fashion, Clutter♥ Im pretty sure thats your name lovely... haha please correct me if Im wrong! :) Im going to pass All Things That Glitter onto:


 

And the Sunshine award onto:

 Jessica @ o me, o life  

 

Hope everyone is having a great week whatever theyre upto. Im barely keeping my head above water at the moment and it is making each week absolutely fly in. Anyone else feeling the same? Its so nice going for the bus in the morning when its light, and coming home in the early evening and its still light! Hooray for sunlight! Haha last time I said that, it then snowed for three days. So no more comments on the weather from myself :)