I look back on pictures of myself and my family 20 years ago, and wonder how many changes have taken place for us all personally, materially, and in our relationships with others since then. No matter what or who have came in and out of my life, one thing has always been a constant - my family. Coming from a rather 'dysfunctional' set up (well, it feels pretty normal to me!) I'm used to adapting and accepting whatever has come my way. Always being open to change. To be less cryptic, I'm talking about things like not meeting my Dad for the first time until I was three years old, being an only child for 15 years, experiencing parents with various different relationships and partners over the years, and by the age of 23 I am now a sister to two siblings from my mum, and more recently two siblings by my dad. Christmas at Mum's house, boxing day at Dad's house. It's the way I've always known it to be, but I guess I still wouldn't have it any other way.
I get nostalgic over this sort of thing especially when I know my mum was my age now, 23, when she had me. It makes me wonder how I would have dealt with the situation. The fear (of pretty much everything) and my dad not initially being there for her. Hearing in awe how she handled things, I imagine the same mum then as I see going about her day to day life right now. Creative, loving, independent, and pretty damn selfless. My mum has brought me up being very open when it comes to talking about life (which is why you get to put up with these lovely long chats of mines!) and the fact that you can not change the direction of the wind but you can always adjust your sails.
After living life with a less than normal family set up, you can imagine how intrigued I was when finding out years ago that my Grandpa (on my Dad's side) whom I have never had the chance to meet due to him and my Gran splitting, had a son in his new marriage not long after I was born. After plenty of questions and also plenty of years later, I felt like I was finally of the age to action getting in touch with this Uncle, my dad's half brother. After finding out the complicated history on my Dad's side, I knew that this wouldn't be as easy or straightforward as my other family experiences have been. I was given a word of warning for hurt and rejection, but this situation wasn't any less awkward or strange as what I'd been through before and survived/came out the other end of. So I went in with an open heart and open mind, and fast forward to 4 months later I guess I can say fortune does favor the brave. The nitty gritty details can stay where they belong, but what I can say is that I am so excited for this new chapter in my life. After getting things back on track in the last year and having my family and best friends around me, good work prospects, a new home and a new outlook on life I now have a new member of my family to add to that addition. I finally got to meet my Uncle Greig (feels wierd saying that, he is a year younger than me!) for the first time, and we have been building a great relationship with each other ever since. He is quickly becoming one of my closest friends, and I really do regret not being able to have known him earlier on in our lives, due to a situation we were born into, which was completely outwith our control. But I am so looking forward to making up for lost time. Plus, he is one cool guy! And actually has a blog (which he might kill me for sharing the link) but here he is :) Edit: Just realised I have been linking to a youtube video rather than Greig's blog. DOH! Have updated it with the proper link now, and in the flesh it is http://through-a-hole-in-the-world.blogspot.co.uk/
Anyways, I ended up writing a bit more about that than what I planned to. But I hope if you have been in a similar situation you can take comfort in knowing things do end up working out the way they are meant to. No matter how crazy, unusual, or dysfunctional you think your family set up may be! Here's some other things which have been making me smile recently:
Nail Tattoos from Nail Art. I can't wait to use these lovelies - they look super easy to apply and will be a godsend for someone like me who is utterly rubbish at nail art! All you do is stick them on and apply a clear coat of nail varnish over the top. My current polish is quite dark (hiding the state of my nails since I bit all my acrylics off - classy!) so I'm waiting until I put a lighter shade on to get use out of these. They're £5.99 for a pack of 60 stickers, available online or at boots. Will let you know how I get on, got my eyes on the wee anchors first!
I got this Tigi Professional Fat Curl Stick and the Tigi Secret Rocker set from Fabriah, who sell a whole range of professional hair products online. Having a Mammy as a hairdresser has given me a taste for salon based products for most of my life - which quite often doesn't come cheap unless you are raiding the beauty section at TKMaxx. But Fabriah offer a whole selection online, and in all honestly it's one of the best selections I've ever seen. If you've been reading my blog for a while you'll know that the Rockaholic hairspray from the above range is my ultimate favourite - so I was looking forward to trying these out too!
The dry shampoo is very effective, for someone like myself who washes her hair every day and sometimes needs help on a morning or evening where I just can't be bothered. The smell is DIVINE, and the formula is not powdery at all (I'm looking at you Batiste!) I have never needed to use detangler on my hair before, but now it's getting longer I'm finding it does tangle after washing. So every morning when I'm out the shower I've been spraying this, leaving it for about a minute and successfully brushing them right out. I love having a nice shine to my hair, but find some oils a bit too heavy, however I've been putting this one on while my hair is still wet and once blow drying it leaves no sticky residue at all. Just shiny hair! This bumper pack is such a good wee deal and now I will be holding these three products as highly as their sister hairspray from the range.
A big thumbs up to Tigi for their curl stick too. I've been dying to try one of these, as curling your hair with ghd's sometimes gets a bit tiring. The curl stick has optional heat settings depending on how much of a wave you are wanting. I did burn my fingers at first but eventually got the hang of it! I'm looking forward to trying it on different settings to see what kind of looks I can achieve. Any advice for using one of these? You'll see the results in the pictures below!
Some other newbies to me are these bits of makeup from MyFace cosmetics (kinda reminds me of Myspace!) I got the blusher in lady monaco, face powder in fair, concealer and foundation in fair03 and their blingtone eyeshadow in bellbottom blues. Firstly I need to speak about the eyeshadow - I wouldn't normally go for blue but I was a complete magpie to their blingtone range. My photo really doesn't capture it (I'll never make it as a beauty blogger eh, no swatches or anything here!) but have a look on the website and you'll see what I mean. Sparkly but grown up without feeling you're at the school disco :) I did mines up with a dark smoky eye and I feel like it really brought out the brown in my eyes. Keen to try more of them now, this one was so pigmented with next to no fall out.
The blusher was as nice as I'd hoped - pigmented but easy to spread evenly. Both it and the powder have a good sized mirror inside, which I feel like some compacts are really lacking these days. The foundation and concealer gave me a medium coverage I would say, and a bit lighter than what I'd usually go for now that the colder months are coming in. But a really strange thing happened, once I set my face with the power (which felt very light) it seemed to really compliment the foundation well and by the end my coverage looked a bit heavier than what I thought it looked like to start. That doesn't even make sense does it? See for yourself...
I have booked up a last minute holiday in the sun to Marmaris on the 17th of october with my flat mate, so I'll certainly be taking this foundation (and the rest) with me, so in the evenings I can still feel like my skin can breathe in the heat. Above is a picture of me after having used all my new hair stuff and new makeup - feeling rather pampered. Check my fringe out though, you will be glad to know I got it chopped today, I was starting to struggle to see! I'm wearing my new skull shirt from Miss Ikon. You can see a full length picture here on the website. It's lovely quality and tucks in at all the right places. Not bad for £11.19 eh?!
Aw, my wee Dexter boy is getting so big! And naughty as ever. He is currently snoozing at my feet while I write this. John will be coming to animal sit for me while I go on holiday, and Dexter adores him so I'm sure they'll be glad to get some boy time together. Not forgetting the piggies either :)
A better shot of my new boots I've got on in the picture above, also from Ikon Clothing. Just what I'm needing in time for the wetter weather we've been having in Glasgow. I'd been contemplating a pair of Doc Martens for a while, and these bad boys were only £20 and haven't needed any breaking in at all. They're all soft and padded inside, and really comfy! So the perfect alternative until I do maybe decide to take the plunge and buy a real pair.
Last but not least, some presents from my nearest and dearest. Johns best friends Andrew and Olivia got me the Laduree Macarons all the way from New York. Can't believe they got them home for me in one piece :) Forever in their debt! And the hello kitty dish towels were a present from John's mum when she went to London. They are too perfect, I'm actually scared to use them! Would it be really sad to leave them for my first flat with John and just keep them on 'display'? Haha, oh the joys of growing up :)
Talking about growing up, I hope you all think of me tomorrow when you are enjoying your lazy sundays and I am in work! But I'm in a good mood after enjoying my day off today so can't really complain eh. Hope you are having a good one whatever you are upto. I need to start getting organised for my holiday, feels a bit late in the year to be buying bikini's now but I'm going to have a look online anyways. I'm putting together a top 10 of the web post to share my favourite websites with you all. I keep on finding wee gems, bookmarking them and then forgetting they exist. I have pretty much fully resorted to buying my tea online now too because it is funnily enough the one thing I always forget when doing my food shop. Thinking about ordering the free 16 trial pack from Victory Tea for a wee change. Plus I really like the cut of their jib (is that just a scottish saying?) Ps. 1500 readers now? Jeezo. You're all MENTAL ♥ I love it!