You know, sometimes I look back on my blog and wonder what the bloody hell I rant on about. I mean really, sometimes I do just let out a serious amount of word vomit. But anyways, finishing this wee lady off has been the highlight of my week :)
I got a positive feedback sheet yesterday containing words from Lynsey Sinnamon, Hazel Blue, and Jamie. All giving their wee piece about how they think I get on in scenic, based on my first allocation there this term. It was all good apart from the reaccuring fact that Im too hard on myself, and my lack of confidence seems to pull my mood down and I dont give myself enough credit to boost my morale and feel good about the work I produce. Turns out im completely 50/50 on being intrinsic and extrinsic in my working environment and what motivates me. We did a little developent sheet, and my allocation of the 'apples' between each optional box of what makes me tick when it comes to my working environment, proves this. Yeah its important to aknowledge what your peers think of your work, and to take in the opinions of experts, but I also need to start working out what my goals are in terms of my own idea of excellence and personal achievement. If I do this, my 'apples' will take care of themself, and shift from the extrinsic boxes into the intrinsic boxes, and I'll stop giving myself a hard time so much and caring too much about what others think! Its kinda a fear of failing I guess :( And not pushing myself to my full potential. I really just need to relax.
"One who fears failure limits his activities. Failure is only the opportunity to more intelligently begin again" - Henry Ford